one of the reasons why

although my heart aches more each day we are apart .... it is for your happiness i endure the pain.... it is not just the gift of life that i wanted you to have it is the joy and quality you deserve .... in one last selfless act i attempt to shelter you from harm... the tears i weep taste bitter sweet as i suffer the loneliness from my own demise... please just know it is all out of love

shoesalesman's dad

My father once told me that force is rarely the answer. When looking at life, love, relationships or hardship how do you know when that is the case? We are taught from a very young age that when life brings hardship you fight your way out of it. So when is force defined?

Once in awhile in my life I try to fight. For what I want, for who I love or what I believe. So I guess the real measure of wisdom is to realize what is what worth fighting for and what is futile and lost. I guess it comes down to what you are able to admit what is really out of your control.

Life is the only way to learn...loss is the only way to see.

id do it again

to say that i never loved before would be a lie.....

to lie would be unfair to you and i
love is a feeling a guided light that flickers in and out of our lives...
if you can catch it hold it near as long as you can.... for when it leaves you..
it will bring nothing but pain
the pain remains until you find that light in time again...
and even when it is found you cant help to feel at a loss
because you never want to feel that pain again.... at last the pain has stopped
but without the pain you would not know to appreciate the joy.... and to learn how to maintain
some think that you only love once , but i think you love when you can
as the world around us changes so does our wants needs and desires.....
my favorite color as a child was pink and purple it is now orange and blue
as we grow into our life so does our heart
i will follow my heart and with it today it is you

thank you

There is this place I go to in my mind, it’s happy it’s pretty it’s bright. I want you to come with me, to see what I see to feel what I feel

My idea of heaven

In my thoughts of heaven there is the warm of the sun.to my right I see mountains of plush green vegetation I see colorful flowers. There is a warm breeze that lifts the scents through the air

To my left I see crystal clear waters, I can hear the rolling waves become one with the shore. The fish abundantly swim with the currents, the ocean spray kisses my cheek

I look up and the sun is so bright and spectacular I see birds soar through the never ending blue skies. I can feel the sand between my toes and the zeal of life around me.

It is a place where what you need you will have. What you desire shall be for filled. You are at peace in your mind so your needs and desires are realistic there for tangible.

At night the sky sparkles with the gods. They are not there to judge but to guide. They offer assistance when it is asked for. But ultimately it is you that makes your life happen. Not the gods.

This place I describe is all because of you. I have never been at a place in my life where I was happy enough to be able to put my thoughts together to know what my idea of heaven was until now.

I have finally got my life back and I know where it is heading and for that I want to thank you.