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Micro Phone check 3 revised

It’s a cognitive synapse.

Tribe called quest

Microphone check 

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Educate before you medicate

it should come as no surprise to anyone whom knows me prior to 2012
that i self medicated inappropriately. lead me down a path of self destruction.
one day in june 2012 I made a choice to change. I d tell you but you would have to ask me in person. 

I came back for my kids at least to help them , buts that’s just more heart aches that lead to rage in side since 2008 or 9. Thanks dirty heads.

Anyway,

Yes educate before you self medicate ( if the words self medicate was a trigger) you may already know 1. A drug is a drug ( N.A) no mind altering substances. ( A.A) 

Well what if your dr prescribed it ? Mental health medication, cannabis . They said no to cannabis. Said I wasn’t ready to stop my destructive behavior. Although I called them ( feb 2012) for a support system. Which lead me to dr cohen in boulder Colorado. He suggested 2 dispensaries. One for indica ( pain) because at that time I was also on OxyContin . Although hey when you’re on disability I needed $ . 

The other was the farm - ( but they have commercialized and are Not what they were!!!!)

The farm in late winter of 2012 was awesome, behind the locked doors was a hairdress on Thursdays , hand paraffin waxes on Friday, massage therapist on Tuesday. All free . Not to mention an educated staff with lab results on printed sheets for you reference on what several canabinoids are beneficial for. Thc is one of the 68 known . Delta 9 is the component that people seek for pain management. If educated. However the flower it’s lost in 86 degrees. So you could place it in the sunlight at 86 degrees and the medical property is gone. Which is where dabs came around. If you heat it at a fast high temperature you can smoke it. Or you can get this 60,000 $ piece of equipment for co2 infused hash oil . This is what I would use for my needs. The size of a piece of rice on your gum and you’re medicated for 4 hours . It worked perfectly for me , unfortunately not for my friend Sara ( because I told everyone I knew about this including my family dr . And together we came up with a tapered dose of my medicine. Now fast forward to now . I can’t consume cannabis anymore although I am 100% a supporter and will happily talk to anyone who is interested. Yes I know what I need and substitute as applicable depending on my senses. No I do not use moderation for meditation . 

I will say this if everything is good in moderation and there’s a fine love between love and hate then there definitely a fine line between moderation and addiction. When do you know it’s addiction usually someone tells you , so is the problem the persons lack of education and judgement ? Well if you can fine your own line of moderation then the same applies for love and hate.